My journal prompt the other day was “What do you wish people knew about you?” I thought this would be a great thing to share. Especially since I’m an introvert with anxiety.
When I am out and about I have my protective introvert shell around me and people don’t get the real me. I am most me when I am alone or around people I feel comfortable with. I am actually pretty goofy and sarcastic, but I am sure that people that have just met me think that I am pretty reserved. I leave my house with the intention to try and be a little more outgoing, but my anxiety kicks in and I just end up being awkward and nervous.
I wish I could overcome this social anxiety to let people see the real me! It takes me a bit to warm up to people because conversations usually start out pretty awkward. I can’t stand small talk… I don’t want to talk about the weather, I want to know everything about you, What was your life like growing up? What are your goals and dreams?
In the past, going out with friends I like to think I was a lot of fun, but it was only from the liquid courage. I would tend to drink a lot because it made it easier to loosen up and have fun around people I wasn’t totally comfortable with.
When I was in college, I had a teacher say to me “You don’t say much, but when you do, it counts”. That pretty much sums me up.
I have literally never gotten a job that I have been interviewed for. It’s hard for me to walk in there with confidence when I have this protective shell around me.
The funny thing is, I enjoy sharing my life on social media. It is a way for people to get to know the real me, while I can feel less awkward about it because I am behind a screen.
What do you wish people knew about you?
Maxine