a case of the mondays…

I have been in a major funk lately. Which is probably one of the reasons I haven’t been blogging much.  I don’t have much to write about.  I can’t name one thing specifically that is getting me down, there are a lot of things.  I need change. I am finding being with a 2 year old and a 3 year old 24/7 is starting to wear me out.  I’m grumpy, irritable, negative, and I don’t like (or maybe don’t know) who I am right now.
As much as I ♥ the summer, I find it so hard to keep caught up to the everyday things that need to be done, since we always seem to be running somewhere.  Or when the sun is shining it is hard to convince 2 little boys (and myself) that there is laundry and housework to be done.  And everyone says “enjoy your time with your kids, because they grow up so fast”, but we need clean clothes and a clean house!!
I have decided to start doing Aesthetics in my home again, 2 days a week. I send the kids to the babysitters.  I’ve really been enjoying these days, even though I am not fully booked with clients yet, I am enjoying the quiet, alone time in my home.  When I am working on clients I don’t consider it work, I find it relaxing. When I am not busy with clients I am able to get the running around and housework done.  But I am really wishing it will pick up…I do still have to pay the babysitter.  I have always been inpatient (just one of my flaws).  I want everything right now.  I can’t expect everyone to come running back to me since I have been off for over 3 years.
I think I need a vacation, alone.  Just a place where things are quiet, so I can think. I’m not sure but something has got to change.  I don’t like to blog about negative things, but I just feel like I needed to write it down.  I find it helps a little.
Sorry for being a Debbie Downer, but sometimes a woman just needs to vent!!
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